Tweak Nic Sheff

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In the memoir Tweak by Nic Sheff, Nic struggles with self-loathing and a drastic drug addiction. Nic repeatedly puts himself down and looks for drugs to help cope with the hatred he has within himself. Although, Nic has this thought that he will never amount to anything, he is still concerned with having a respectable image through the eyes of others. Nic Sheff’s conflict with himself and his drug addiction teaches the reader that you have to look at yourself in a positive light in order for other people to do the same through Nic’s countless times of going to rehab and feeling pity on himself. Throughout the memoir Nic Sheff follows a cycle of using drugs and then going to countless rehabilitation centers. Before Nic’s first relapse he …show more content…

After, Nic took a vacation with his father and sibling he began to think to himself that he has to stop trying to have everyone else's life and to just change his own. Nic says, “And then behind everything is my knowledge of the truth: I can't have their lives. I have to rebuild my own-something I have no idea how to do”(Sheff 199). Basically, Nic finally realizes that he cannot live the life of his little brother and sister. He realizes that he has messed up his relationship with his father and the only way to fix it is if he change his ways. In the same way, while reading to Lucy and compliments how sweet and delicate she is and he has this epiphany that there is actually still good in him as well. Nic says, “It’s in me. Sure, I buried it. I buried it and buried it and turned away from everything light and sweet and delicate and lovely and became so scared and scarred and burdened and fucked up. But goodness is there inside--it must be”(Sheff 167). Reading to Lucy and realizing how light and happy she is reminds Nic that he used to be the same way and could be the same way. Even though his sweet part is buried deep inside of him he still acknowledges the fact that it is still present no matter how buried away it is within. He begins to think that if he builds up the confidence to look at himself through a positive eye he will be able to

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