Significant Childhood Events

The Impacting Events of Childhood
There is nothing more painful than losing someone that you love. As a child, the concept of death is something that I was confronted with at the young age of 5. The death of my grandfather and best friend shaped my childhood and impacted all of my actions from that moment forward.
As a child, I had always felt out of place despite having numerous friends. I had a mind which desired to understand the complexities and mysteries of the universe which, at age 5 was a desire that my peers could not relate to, however; my grandfather was one such a man who understood this desire and so despite the age difference, we were inseparable. I was a kid who had a million and a half questions bouncing all around in my head and he was a man who had a million and a half answers waiting to be

Now that he was gone, I had no one to show my true self to, and so little by little, I began to change into someone who I was not, longing to be understood in a world I was unfamiliar with. I didn’t realize how much of an effect my grandfather’s death had on me until I began to reflect on all of my past relationships with other people during a quiet moment of self analyzation in the middle of the night. I realized that deep within myself was lying a fear of losing the ones who I cared for and the more that I cared for someone, the more fearful I became of losing them. After acknowledging this fear, I began to cry and all of my emotions that I felt as a child came back to me however, as the last tear fell from my face, I felt an immense amount of peace surround me. It was at that moment that I realized after my confrontation with my fears that I was free of this trauma and was now more strong than I had ever been before. It was at this moment that I remembered who I was and as my ego crashed into the ground, I was reborn like a phoenix from the