Life In Langston Hughes: The Reality Of Life

“See life for me aint me been no crystal stair it’s had splinters and tackler, but I keep moving on” as the mother in Langston Hughes poem, Crystal Stair, explained to her son. Life is so full of adventures, shaping personalities with joy and heartaches. Many of which, have turned out to have a great impact on my life. There are many things that has shaped my personality, such as emotional situations, death, and college. All playing a very important role in creating and fighting to be who I am today.
As a child, I had the rage of the mightiest lion with eyes cold as the winter storms. I have had my share in the making of chronicles of a Lifetime story. The one when the teenager goes through an assortment of situations that led to many nights

After, she passed, life seemed darker for awhile. Perhaps, losing loved ones, are physical and mental blows, that I can’t seem to get away from. I would cry for days with wondering thoughts on how I could have saved them. As family and friends disappeared whether by death or just lack of communications in friendships, it had negatively affected me, wondering when will the last day be. However, as I begun to face the realities of life, I am learning that you enjoy life today and focus on whatever comes when it comes.
College was the biggest influence in my life, so many things transpired. For some reason, I was free there, free to be whomever, I wanted, since no one knew me. I could change from being the introvert around others, so that I would not be judged. It was in college, that I began finding what did or didn’t work for me. I was embraced by friendships that boosted my confidence and provided reassurance. I finally began to find my identity and I was excited about it. Maybe, two years after graduation, I began subbing as a middle school math teacher. It was then that I found my true passion in life,

I think that I missed many of Erik Erikson’s development stages according to their age descriptions such as mistrust vs trust. It’s for me to trust someone to an extent, I would always think of the things they could do to harm me. As many teenagers and young adults, I also struggle with identity. Often wondering who I were, how did I fit in and would my peers like me. Erikson’s stages and explanations provided me with possible reasoning for some of the situations I may face, and how I can counterbalance them.
Sigmund Freud also made an impact in understanding the emotional issues faced as a child and the aggression presented towards my mother. Oh, God, I wrote in journals about how she was so mean and how I wish she would do things differently. Although, she was my only consistent caregiver at the time, I only wanted to be around my father.
In conclusion, you can’t change what happens in life, just want to be aware of my mistakes, so that I will not repeat them. I tell my students, make sure every choice that you make today, will be the decision you’re okay with tomorrow. Life is not perfect, so I am learning to not freak out about situations that I can’t control. I listen to gospel music for comfort, pray and thank God for getting me through it. I also reflect back over my favorite poem, Footprints in the Sand. The poem by Mary Stevenson