Jamaica Kincaid Analysis Essay

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In Jamaica Kincaid’s passage, the narrator clearly struggles with her assimilation to her newer, more modern world. She has experienced an arguably better lifestyle since she left her home, but these “firsts” make her “smile with my mouth turned down”(11). These new experiences do not make her happy or make her feel comfortable. She’s living out of her own skin in a different and jarring new life. Nothing is familiar, and nothing from her former life fits in with her present. However, her past is a part of her sense of self, and the new and demanding current situation threatens her “familiar and predictable”(40) past, although “a not very nice situation”(53-54). The narrator identifies more with her past than her new environment. She describes her current world as cold and gray compared to her warm and colorful memories. The cold air and the weak sun, “trying to shine” (21) emphasize her unpleasant first impression of her new situation. She had put on a “gay dress made out od madras cloth‒the same sort I would wear if I were at home” (24-25), and her tone implies her excitement in finally being able to live in a better place. The change in mood from the dreary January weather to the gay sundress from the Caribbean highlights her discomfort and conflict with her …show more content…

She herself doesn’t seem to know what she wants. The narrator compares herself to characters in books that have experienced the same identity crisis and feels that she also “long[s] to go back where it was not very nice”(51-52 because she “understood it and knew where I stood there” (56-57). Her past and her present cannot peacefully exist, so she is in the middle being pulled both ways. She even knows “it was all wrong”(26) for her knowledge and her self from the past would not fit into her new life. She now knows homesickness and even more

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