Identity In James Mcbride's The Color Of Water

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Passion is a strong and barely controllable emotion. “She refused to divulge details about herself or her past,” says James McBride, in the search of his identity. James and his siblings are in an endless search to find their mother’s identity. James along with his sibling’s, trade and share information amongst each other like “trading playing cards.” Ruth is very discreet and enigmatic about her past, which sways her children’s place in the world. In James McBride’s memoir, The Color of Water, James writes about how his mother Ruth, refuses to reveal her past. James questions his race and speculates why his mother is “light-skinned”, but his mother never tells him why. He uses his mother’s denial to find his place in the world as well as …show more content…

Ruth’s rejection to reveal her past leaves James in confusion which results in poor decision making. James disregards school frequently and squanders with his friends at “The Corner,” which influences him on drinking and smoking weed for the first time. Since James refrains from church and avoids his godparents, he says “I was the first kid on my block to smoke cigarettes and reefer” (138). James matures during a time where many teenagers begin to smoke and drink. Since James avoids his home as much as possible, Ruth is left with no other option, but to shriek at James. In addition, Ruth causes James and his siblings to be puzzled mainly due to Ruth’s secretive past. James struggles to find his identity and deals with the hardships of his race which causes him to use weed to escape from reality. Ruth’s refusal results in James using weed to forget the truth, James says “Weed was my friend, weed kept me running from the truth” (163). James uses weed to forget that his mother is falling apart. He tries to quit from weed, but he continues because weed helps him move on with the truth. Ruth’s refusal persuades James to search for his identity through smoking refers and forgetting the truth. James finds himself lost in the world due to his mothers mysterious

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