Augustine's Fear Of Death

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For years, Augustine feared death. His philosophical mind debated what came after, and he trembled as to what fate would await his sinful soul if he were to die an unbeliever. Yet still he did not repent. He understood that bodily death would not include the death of one’s soul, for why else would “the eminent and lofty authority of the Christian faith” be spread throughout the world (Augustine 109). He speculated as to why this faith would be so important, so popular despite its denial of self, without some aspect of truth. But still he did not turn to Christ. He wished to enjoy life in his youth- even in his adulthood -through sinful means, and perhaps settle down later in life and convert, for he admitted that he desired to search for God …show more content…

To Augustine’s mind, his lustful pleasures were “very pleasant too” (Augustine 109) and despite his fear of death and the eternal torment of his soul, he loved them too much to give them up. Their momentary joy was to him more obvious than the threat of Hell, which seemed to be far in the distance. Our lives, however, are fleeting, and can quickly be ended, through cancer, a car accident, a terrorist attack, heart disease, a stroke, pneumonia, and many other causes. And what will come of the resolution to convert later in life then? Or perhaps the pleasures of life are too pleasing to give up, and that day of conversion is put off more and more until, old, bitter, and with a life of broken, wasted energy and pleasures, one dies separate from God. It is never wise to put off conversion, and Augustine nearly learnt that the hard …show more content…

It brought him “to death’s door loaded with all of the sins” (Augustine 86) that he had committed. And “for no single one of them [sins]” (Augustine 86) was he pardoned in Christ. As he lay there dying, he was more concerned with the supposed death of his soul that was coming than the death of Christ on the cross, the death that defeated death and paved the way to life. When God blessed him with health again, he continued to fear death, not the One who had conquered death, like a civilian who fears the forces of an evil emperor, not the emperor, the mastermind behind the destruction, himself. And while fighting the forces is an immediate thing, sooner or later the mastermind must be dealt

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