A Dialogue with Max

Knowing that my father wasn't home I went around back only to frantically begin searching for the abandoned spare key that I knew he used to leave out here for the nights he came stumbling home drunk without his own.

After getting frustrate I gave up the search when remembering one of the glass panels on the back door had been loose for quiet a few year before I had left.

Pushing on the panels till I found the right one I new when I suddenly popped forward slightly shocking me before I grabbed for it.

(The guys had left an hour or two prior to go to the studio and began to track there instruments , vocal tracks weren't for a few days so I took the being alone opportunity to visit my old house we'll my dad's house)

Placing the glass on the ground carelessly I reached in hoping I could grab the handle, loosing excitement realizing I was only an inch or so from it , repositioning myself I felt cool metal upon my knuckles fumbling around in a firm grasp slowly turning until I heard that familiar click...

FLASHBACK

Our plan of quietly sneaking in had already failed knowing my father would most likely be downstairs within minutes to yell,so I stopped trying to be quiet and slammed the back door while still holding up an extremely intoxicated Max with one arm.

I felt him chuckle feeling his hot breath against the bare skin of my neck causing me to shudder.

Trying to lead him threw the kitchen , dreading the fact I'd have to figure how to get myself up the stairs thinking about leaving him on the couch , when his hand slowly started sliding down my back causing me to loose my balance hearing a wretched shattering sound noticing a broken beer bottle now upon the floor.

(So maybe my dad had been d...

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... this is about sex we dont have to."

"Ronnie, please just talk to me"

I opend my mouth slightly to speak yet no words came out..

"I want ...it. " I finally let out in a shaky voice

"you dont want to bottom..?" he let out laughing as he scrunched up his face max..MAX! "yes?" the drunkness returning to his voice

"you're drunk,go to bed." I spoke in a cold emotionless voice.

"ha...your scared" max stuttered letting drewl escape his lips...

...right.. i love you .. if y....a day im g..onna fuck .you." max slurred slowly resting his body against mine placing his head on my chest, making me be able to feel the buldge in his pants. he was trying to be innocent but it wasnt working something about it set me off.

"FUCK OFF." I yelled shoving him off me with brutal force staggering to my own wobbly feet

I could see him shrink back in fear... which made me feel even better...